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Beware of Your Shortcomings

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Channel your energy into something positive

I have spent a fair amount of time during my walk with Christ engaged in spiritual warfare. The past year has certainly been the most challenging. I recently read The Bondage Breaker. This book gave me some more insight into spiritual warfare and how Satan manipulates your thoughts. Satan can’t read your mind. But the accuser can gather what your shortcomings are by observing you.

It may help to make an honest assessment of your shortcomings and write it out. That way you and Satan can be on notice. My potential shortcomings will be several: I still have a desire for a girlfriend and/or wife someday. I have now defeated the nighttime attacks that were happening for nearly a year. Satan knew that I had regrets over not having lived a full life as a teenager (didn’t date, shy, wasn’t good enough to make football team), and while I was not interested in marriage in my 20’s, I was having these desires now. Satan was pulling a one-two punch by making me think I missed out on my life while taunting me to rush in and have it now. Satan will be watching for what I do in the future hoping that I will get in over my head. But this scheme will fail too.  

Another vunerabilities will be financial. I am wondering just how my job prospects will be upon graduation with thousands of dollars in student loans. Then there is the possibility that this career change to coaching may or may not work out. After all I’ve had several career attempts/jobs that never lasted long. Then there is the plan to visit San Antonio for a convention and attend a Christian counseling session. This would be like putting on new armor that I alluded to in my most recent post. The opportunity to network and meet some friends would be a tremendous boost to my morale.  Satan is going to attempt to prey on my uncertainties about being able to make this trip. But it will get done one way or another. Another one of Satan’s attempt at instilling doubt/fear will fail.

The other vunerability will be to launch a flanking manuever in order to take out my support network. Satan will attempt to incite fear that people will abandon, betray me, doubt me, etc… Satan may have me being disappointed that I may not do well on a test, get overwhelmed with classes, or cause me to screw up somewhere. But yet again, because I will keep my focus on Jesus, Satan will fail again.  

 

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November 29, 2011 at 7:23 pm

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My Journey

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“Listen carefully. An upcoming important message may be subtle.”

I did receive this important subtle message recently and it was that Satan is now changing tactics. One of the most enjoyable things I’ve done is animal rescues/transports. It was on my most recent transport that I learned of this. Satan’s attempts at taking out me out in a frontal assault have failed. Now Satan will attempt to outflank me.

If you wanted to use the analogy of tank warfare, for the past twelve years, I’ve been like a Tiger I tank (don’t get distracted by the fact it was used by the Germans; just focus on my point), I’ve been in a defensive position with superior armor, and a stronger gun, but I haven’t used it yet. The shells from the Shermans just kept bouncing off. I would be rattled many times, but my tank has held up. By now, I could use a new tank and after being in a defensive positions for nearly twelve years (accepted Christ March 2000), I’m wanting to take the offensive. Satan knows this and thus explains the flanking manuever. I’m also on a timetable to receive a new tank that will be used to take the offensive. But just as now that a new tank is being brought to the front lines, Satan changes tactics. If I were to receive this tank, it would be a moral booster. Satan even tried a last-ditch effort with a heavy duty machine gun just a few days ago and yet it still failed to destroy me. Yes, rattled me some, but I still held. I will explain the significance of this move soon.

Having gone through Sanctification and now embracing my role as a liberator and teacher, Satan knows I’m a threat to his future plans. This is why I suffer. But I do not complain because I do this for God’s glory and I will be protected. Even in physical death, I will reap the benefits of salvation and claim a spot as a descendant of a king. Thankfully I no longer see the political system as a means for positive change. I don’t put my faith in people and their ways. Only in God. That being said, we should liberate ourselves from the system altogether and live by faith. ‘The one who is righteous will live by faith.’

So what has been going on? Basically in the past ten years, I’ve gone through a lay-off from Scripps Networks and my grand plan to become a great movie producer never took off. I work this job and that job and could never imagine myself doing it for the rest of my life. I even asked God what I should do and received no answer. I also had the desire to play baseball, football and other sports, but I was never going to be big enough, fast enough, talented enough to make it. I wasn’t even good enough to make the starting lineup on any team. My identity was saked in things I was never going to have. I felt cheated as I get to watch Dwight Gooden, Peyton Manning or even Alfred Hitchcock enjoy the fruits of their labor.

Over this past year or two, Satan knows that I have had strong desires for a girlfriend/wife. I have said or written as much. Satan also knows that I feel that I haven’t lived my life to the fullest. I was and to an extent still am an introverted, shy type. I was very shy around girls in high school due to have self-doubts regarding my hearing loss, speech impediment and being too small (5’6″, 130 pounds). I had the impression girls/women were interested in taller boys who were accomplished, had cars and money. I am now 5’9″, 170 pounds and better at socializing, but my resume would come across as unspectacular. It would look nice, but nothing that causes me to stand out. I am also misunderstood still in part because of my physical shortcomings, but also because I have a very different viewpoint of the world now. 

I began opening up in college and felt that I was going to go places especially after majoring in Video Production Technology at Pellissippi State Community College. But while I was getting better at socializing, most of my conversations were technical i.e. SMPTE color bars, calibrating editing equipment, or what not. My time at Pellissippi State were some of the happiest times of my life. But I also have fond memories of being a child. Nothing beats MTV, Saturday morning cartoons, and the Dukes of Hazzard. I also enjoyed Charlie’s Angels, Black Sheep Squadron and a number of other TV shows from that era. I have enjoyed old movies since childhood (but viewing was limited to an occassional VHS rental) and first became interested in Alfred Hithcock movies at around 16. I worked in the library for two years, checking out A/V equipment to be delivered to teachers, handled the live camera feed during morning newscasts, and even wrote a play based on Amos and Andy for a church luncheon for poor parents and their children. I will never forget seeing the girl who made a mess of herself with beanie-weenies and laughing at the play on stage. I was having dreams of being the next movie director or producer. After all, set your sights high and you can be anything you want to be. But nowadays, I realize the American Dream is false gospel.

During my childhood and early adult years, Central Baptist Church of Fountain City was my home church. Then beginning at 23, West Park Baptist was my home.  Something interesting happened after committing my life to Christ on March 18, 2000. I realized I wasn’t saved simply by being a member of a church or knowing a few storiesI was a political activist working for candidates like Michael Badnarik. I was truly devoted. But after the 2004 election, I was burned out and losing faith in people. I even laid in bed for a month only to get up to eat. Over the next five years or so, I worked a few other jobs and withdrew from politics. I barely spent any time on the 2008 campaign for that matter although I supported Ron Paul. This time around, I anticipate not spending any time on electioneering. I still support Ron Paul’s ideas on liberty. But liberty is much bigger than one man. It is a gift from God. It is just that we humans haven’t been good stewards of what God has given us. Thankfully I no longer see the political system as a means for positive change. I don’t put my faith in people and their ways. Only in God. That being said, we should liberate ourselves from the system altogether and live by faith.

I’ve always been a Baptist in name. But just in the past 10 years, I’ve truly immersed myself in its history and traditions. One of my favorite pieces of literature on Baptist history is the text of a speech given by Walter Shurden in 1996. I thought it was interesting that he used to teach at Carson-Newman. How ironic that I enrolled as a transfer student 2 1/2 years ago, using my video production skills to benefit the football team, have changed majors from Physical Education to Business and now to Religion. I’m seeking a career change to coaching, but now that focus has changed. My career change has now moved to an emphasis on ministry with athletics simply being the vehicle that will be used to pick people up. I’m starting to come to terms with and realize what God in His mysterious way has been molding me for. My journey while like a ship encountering storms at sea and monsters, I am in sight of land. But I will not disembark now. I will travel up and down the coast. Eventually I will step on land. But God will make the decision as to what path I take. I might start coaching at a high school. I might become a college coach. I may become an NFL scout at some point. But I will not get ahead of myself too much and rely too much on my own understanding. I have let go. God has been guiding me all along, I’m starting realize what is happening and have embraced it. “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.” Proverbs 3:5-6 

Next, I will write soon on my vulnerabilities, how Satan intends to exploit them and what defensive strategies I will use until my new tank arrives. I will be taking the offensive very soon 🙂

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November 28, 2011 at 2:32 pm

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My 40 Day Fast

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On Friday evening, I started on a fast that would last 40 hours. No it had nothing to do with the resurrection of Jesus. Besides, he was laid in the tomb on Wednesday and rose on Saturday fulfilling the sign of Jonah.

Basically the following is my journal entry making a note of symptoms and reactions to what I was experiencing:

Friday morning: Ate part of Thanksgiving leftover and went for a walk. Walked to the dining hall to see what time they opened again (Sunday at 4:30). I felt a presence in the room basically taunting me that I may have to go a whole day or more without food. This spirit was hoping that I would give into fear.

Friday 5:30 p.m: Ate last meal from Thanksgiving leftovers.

Saturday 2 p.m. : While on a walk on campus heading to watch a women’s basketball game, I started experiencing  disorientation. Objects in my view acted as if they were bouncing up and down. My knees were aching from walking. Slight headache while watching game.

Between 6-10 p.m.: experienced the following-some more disorientation, headaches, sunken tongue, slight memory loss, nerve feelings weren’t as acute, eyelids were getting heavy, muscles were weakening. Went to bed around 11.

3 a.m.: Woke up when I started experiencing some hunger pangs.

8 a.m.: Woke up, shaved and dressed for church. Ate again at 9:30. Quiche and strawberries. By 10, I had a stomach ache, then my body felt flushed and warm. I started feeling sleepy.

4:30 p.m.: Ate my first good sized meal in 47 hours. My body acted as if it wanted to reject food i.e. treating it as as foreign object. I felt like I was going to vomit.

Over the coming days, I will be blogging about experience with spiritual warfare and what I can expect to occur in the near future.

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November 27, 2011 at 11:38 pm

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What Is The Deal With Joe Pa and Penn State?

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Update: So this case gets more interesting. In addition to Joe being the fall guy, a District Attorney has been missing since 2005. Now he could have been abducted by UFO’s. But they usually return. Smells like a professional hit since he was getting close to uncovering a child sex ring that was being operated by the Board of Trustees. They are a very powerful group in state and national politics. They serve as a middle man between Jerry Sandusky’s organization and donors. The question I have is will the BOT ever be investigated? I doubt it since just about anybody can be bought. It will be up to the alumni, faculty, and students to put pressure on them to either resign or be indicted or both.

By now, everyone has heard about the allegations against Joe Paterno and Jerry Sandusky. This headline should be titled “Board of Trustees planned scandal to ouster Paterno”. This is where the real power in college athletics is. Whoever holds sway with the BOT and Athletic Department will usually get what they want. The fact of the matter is this: Like with Bobby Bowden, Paterno is getting old and he has been there too long. PSU hasn’t been nationally relevant in football since the late 1990’s. If these allegations occurred twelve years ago, why weren’t charges brought then? Timing is everything. Merely accusing someone of something is enough. This will give the powers that be an out to move in a new coach and thus generate excitement amongst the alumni, students and national media. I’m interested in knowing how many people in the DA’s office are also PSU alumni.

The media in general isn’t exactly run by the most ethical and honest people. It is one reason why I am not in journalism anymore and that was just for a year or so (newspaper reporter). Anything is done to generate headlines. Headlines brings in viewers and that makes advertisers happy. It also explains the jockeying for position in the conference realignment talks. Decency, honor, loyalty. Nice catchphrases. But in the end, it is all about winning.

So Joe, don’t let this cause you to be bitter. You have earned your way and you ought to ride off into the sunset. Let those who accuse you stand before a higher authority someday.

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November 8, 2011 at 7:13 pm

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